Representative droplets..

'Smile...even if it's a sad smile, because sadder than a sad smile is the sadness of not knowing how to smile'

I dreamt you again, and this time, I fell into your embrace, and I was instantly flooded with such a warmth.

It was as if the sun shone in favour of me, its rays stretching towards me and blanketing me in safe heat, shielding me from the harsh, desolate landscape that surrounded me, where the wind howled and threatened to slice through my skin with its ice-cold touch.

You were hugging me. Your arms wrapped easily around my shoulders, and you comfortably leaned your head next to mine tucked into my shoulder.

Your hold on me was tight and secure, and I instantly felt safe in your arms, your warmth dissolving into my skin, warming my cold heart. The hairs of my neck stood on end as I shivered against your body, and I found myself returning your gesture, pulling myself closer as I grasped the back of your jacket.

I felt myself urging for more of your warmth; for not even a millimetre of distance between us, and I moulded myself against your physique. I buried my face under your neck, and a single tear pricked in my eye as I dreamed this was real, waking up to the warmth of my electric blanket under me....

"Kiss me"...is all i can utter...

Growing experience

You were special, from the very first.

- You actually l o o k into my eyes when we speak, and it really amazes me.

- I hope you realise that I can't actually do everything by myself; there's a reason I asked you.

- I'm so thankful I met you, but sometimes I put up with the secret heartache of seeing you with someone else.

- You provide more than the temporary relief to a burdened and heavy weighted heart, which, before, remained burdened, and if anything, even heavier than before.

- The words "why do you love me?" never felt so real to me in my entire life until now.

- I can still see Your love everywhere, blessing me back into salvation.

-Even though you're old than me, that's not the point..the point is you're growing more beautiful each and every day, and I'm proud to be your best friend.


happy 8 months to the most precious girl...

Sorrowful partings

its going to be hard....

this seperation will be so god damned hard.

But why?




I know I'll see you again...eventually

We are already p h y s i c a l l y seperated

There is distance in kilometers between US

So then why the sorrow, the pain, the sadness that was never there before?

All that's changed is the amount of contact

No more hearing that voice that still rings in my ears

No more seeing that smile that would ease all my worries away

No more holding onto that hand, that finally, clings back with just as much love


I said the s e p e r a t i o n would be good

On the bright side, it would allow ME to focus

Focus on the things I wish I could just toss away and abandon

That we would be stronger, not just for ourselves, but for each other

Our love for each other is unconditional and would continue to grow

You smiled, a sad smile, when I suggested this idea

Contemplating, knowing that you would not be able to help me

No longer able to lift the burden off my shoulders when the worst came back

Who would I talk to now? Who would confide in me?

What will change in the time we lack contact, the times we just..want to escape?


I wonder when it will become so unbearable to hear your voice

Or run my fingers down your face

When thinking about Y O U will leave me in tears

Make me feel alone, so hopeless, as I begin to crumble...

No longer that pillar of support that I promised we would both be





When will your memories start becoming a nightmare I need to escape.....