Blessed...

You look at me with those eyes, ever so beautiful, ever so full of innocence.

I wish there was something I could do, something that I could say to help you.

I can find nothing, nothing in this changing world to envelop u in my love.

As I look on, I want to assure you, over and over again, I love you so much.

Not as a chore, or out of habit, rather as a message that completes me, with every repetition

Cradle you like a baby, spoil you with as much as I can give you.

You make me complete, don’t I have the right to complete you?

Even though I’m not your ladle, even though I can be with you even when my heart is yearning,

Can I at least pray, pray for your soul, that God may bless you, like he blessed me with you?

I see you tremble; your light framed shoulders slightly shudder, as if condemned to self suffering

Can I conceive your heartache, and your pain, will you let me in to your guarded heart?

Burdens, I want to share, like a new born puppy that lights up a smile on your face.

That pain, I would gladly give up my life that I so desperately have clung to, just to see you smile.

Envisions, can I pillow your head, can I shelter your heart, can I fill the carelessly torn trust in you?

Or will you push me away, not out of selfishness, rather selflessness.

A worry, a desire not to tell, a fear, that preys on your heart, that shrouds your thinking,

Leaving me further and further condemned in my own indulgence of worry for you.

You have consumed my mind time and time again, a place empty till you so warmly occupied it.

I lean my shoulders, as I fear they are the only things that keep you with me.

I want to pour out the words you need to hear, the ones that will otherwise leave you full of bliss

You’re my best friend, and I am at loss of words and of ability to stir up even a smile across your face

Even if it’s a selfish wish, even if it’s for the shortest amount of time, even if my love is never truly reciprocated, can you too, slowly open your humble heart, to this selfish girl?

I don’t want to give up on you no matter what, no matter if I have unintentionally hurt, or inflicted

Some sort of pain that deems me unworthy of your praise, your touch, your love.

You mumble your intrusion on the train, and I only wish to assure you otherwise, yet

My actions have caused you uncertainty, a sort of fear that times are changing, friend may too…

Five long months, nearly half a year, that I’ve kept so true to you, giving you my all…

Learning what it feels to love someone so unconditionally, dream of a future entangled with yours

Hearing you ever so cheerfully exclaiming the wonders of your day, in your cute, hurried fashion

Drawing upon my weaknesses, making me fall deeper and deeper into this well of contentment.

Your pain is no longer your pain, but my pain as well, that affects my reasoning, my peace of mind

Looking back, I only have gratefulness, one that extends to a God, that gave me you

Such a wonderful person, a being I never knew would enter my life and blow it away.

The 5 months with you have been amazing, a rollercoaster journey, full of ups and downs.

No matter how much I cry while writing this, it does not compare to the heartbreak I feel

When I am away from you, when you so carelessly assume that your presence is little in my life

I made decisions, I had a choice, and I chose you, my bumbling, humbled girl, so truly pretty.

You constantly support, as I selfishly cling and wish you to only be mine, teasespoon.

Your ladle is truly amazing, that regardless he is able to see just how beautiful you really are.

I want to be your Elliot, and you my buttons.

My concerns for your best interests have been with you since the beginning, and I’d only wished for your eternal happiness, with or without me.

I’ve never been more proud to have a best friend, and I can’t imagine life without you.

I pray for your happiness. And I pinky promise you, I will stand by you as much and as long as humanly possible.

I love you so very much…my dearest kk

….so make a wish…..