Like Sarah, I wish to:
To let the people I love know that they're loved...
And to try harder so that I won't lose any more relationships unless it's really time to go.
Like Sarah,
I have found myself at crossroads in my personality. It’s simply between me and who I should be...which road can I take?
Unstable. Insecure. Breakable.
The challenge is here, the time is now, all I need is to see you smile, smile, only for me…
That alone is enough, enough to propel this gullible nature, so to speak, to be your support.
You are far beautiful, beyond anything in this world.
My resolution is for consistency and balance. To develop a committing heart, that is so not easily swayed by those kind words you cleverly utter.
Organisation; the chance to learn that I can keep to a timetable to define this one year that will highlight what is essentially my resolve…
And to have faith, that love is so not easily given or taken, rather it is earned and occupies that warm chamber that steadily beats with its slow, constant momentum, over and over, so defined like the choices we are blindly hidden away from.
Happiness
I will try, learn and read these hands of mine so high up, to that hole that beckons, enticing me closer and closer, wiping the guilt, sorrow and pain away, that I might be forgiven, that I too, my have a chance of obtaining my own happiness, regardless of the circumstances.
And for you, I only wish to be happy when your happy, take your hands and gaze into those intense eyes, place our foreheads together and pray, and feel you heartbeat, like mine, beat in the same place for the same people.
I shall not loose hope, even in the direst situations; because it will only be a trial, there will always be a person, with their arms wide open waiting for me on the other side, only to embrace and fonder this longing heart.
For my school friends, the ones who will constantly put up with my immature and fickle heart:
- Luke I would like to avoid fighting all year, it leaves my heart unsettled, my brain challenged as if I am not pretentious enough by my already scarred past that so lays the foundation for these opinions and thoughts not close mindedness. Yet, your carefree and exigent nature tests my courage as an older friend as I look on with a silent plea. Don’t toss me away…
- Irene, Ashleigh and Jeannine, I would like to spend as much time as my hectic lifestyle allows me this year at Senior School, because memories untainted will always pull me closer and closer to you, to ignore my own pain and see past the efforts one makes in order to make people like me reassured and at peace. Thank you, so very much …
For my dearest Ketchup, Rice, Jezenemy, Charz, Mihiri, Sonam, and my two precious sisters; Carly and Nat chan, I will dedicate a full blog post to you (L)
So please, don’t let go of this trembling, breakable hand that so desperately clings for your lingering body warmth…..
Don't run away from me.....I need you
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